Yes... Quickly! That I think is the thing that is on my mind most. I long for the weeks to go by and to be near the day that I get to hold my precious daughter (WOAH! First time I have referred to her as my daughter! A little wierd... but wonderful!). I was actually just talking to my mom today about the anticipation of her arrival! She was texting me about how when she looks at the ultrasound picture she cannot help but be overwhelmingly excited to meet her! I cannot agree more!! I so look forward to the day that I can snuggle her... smother her in kisses.. and attempt to teach her everything I know about being a female... a friend... a daughter... and most importantly & hopefully a follower of Christ! But at the same time... I am reminded of how much in the past I have wished my life away! The moments that I wished to be out of school and to finally to be in summertime! And then the moments of wishing I was out of high school... and then college. The moments I wished unemployment to be gone and to finally have a job... and then when I have a job... longing for the weekends to not have to work! Let me not forget to mention the moments that I wished my singleness would turn into being a girlfriend... fiance (even though I did not have to wait long at all to be a fiance! hehe)... and then wife... and now... a mommy!
So, how much of this do I truly want to wish away!! I know that when she does enter this world... she is going to begin growing faster than I can soak up and I will look back on this day and wonder where it went! I am scared to watch her grow and learn... but also excited to have the honor to witness such an amazing thing! I know I will learn a lot from observing her live her life! But for now... do I have the patience to enjoy today!!!? Today is what the Lord has blessed me with!! What kind of steward am I being of this day that the Lord has given me? It is pretty convicting if you ask me! Who am I to cast aside today and tell God that this day is not important and does not have a purpose!! May I learn to cherish every kick, every pound put on(I say that lightly ;-)), every centimeter I grow to... may I celebrate what the Lord is doing TODAY! November will come faster than I can imagine... and it will quickly pass as well! And by the grace of God I will hold my daughter in 17 weeks (give or take) but for now may I cling to the moments of carrying her inside me!
Me at 23 Weeks 2 days:
Hey, Katie!
ReplyDeleteI meant write you, but these last weeks have been busy with taking care of Joe! :) He was an easy patient really, I just don't get the chance to keep him in one place often enough! Ha!
Anyway, I am happy to see you are reminding yourself to savor this pregnancy! I hope it has been wonderful for you thus far. I LOVED it so much! I was obviously so thrilled to hold my babies, but both times I did miss them being in there! It is such a special time... ahhh... :) I think being a mommy is just so full of the bitter-sweet. We are blessed continually with sweet stages and memories in the making, but we also are continually letting go as they grow and learn and change. This is a fantastic life and precious journey you are on! Enjoy!
Candace
Katie, I just loved reading your reminder to savor today!!! All too often- we wish the moments away, but they go fast enough without our wishing! :) I'm excited to meet your sweet girl as well... but for now- enjoy those kicks!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Jessica