The Same Earth But Not The Same World

Sorry I have not posted in quite some time nor posted my 366 photo moments of 2012. Lets just say... kids change things... and my brain just does not seem to work like it did before. I am much foggier than I was and my spirit has seemed to be quite quiet lately. 


Evelyn is doing well! Growing as they all do... but Evelyn is especially growing! She is now 17 lb 1 oz (exactly 9 lbs up from birth weight) and 25 in long (4 inches from birth). Not to mention a 16 3/4 in head! That is 99% for weight, 88% for head, and around 70% for length. What can I say! She is a good eater! She is doing really well at night! Typically goes down at 11pm(ish) and gets up 7:30am(ish) and will sometimes go back down depending on how tired she is. I am currently working on getting her down early but she is just like her mom & dad and is wide awake late at night! She is trying so hard to sit up and loves to stand (not by herself). Grandma Nancy just got her a saucer and she loves being able to see what mom is up to! She is starting to know when you have been out of the room for awhile and she will using start squawking to let you know she is no fool!! Andy & I are just truly blessed with her! We love her so much (as parents do.) A parent's love is just so unfathomable. I wish I could fathom it because I know it would transform my view of God! I wonder if God ever wants to hug us so hard that our heads would pop off... I feel that way sometimes! You just swell up so much over your child. So that is something I want to be praying for! That the Lord would continually use it to turn my eyes to him and open them to see how big He is and how much He loves us! I want to mull that over and just digest it and let it be what gives me energy and passion! 


I am currently going through the book "Created To Be His Help Meet" by Debi Pearl. Amazing book! I recommend it highly (so far!) She has transformed my view of what a wife is to be. What I am called to be! The Lord is using this book to open my eyes to see what Andy needs from me as his wife, his helper, his help meet. I am created to complete him... not the other way around. I am here to serve him... not the other way around! God created man and saw that it was not good for man to be alone (Genesis 2:18)! Staying home is no easy job and it can definitely be a barrier to understanding each other and each other's roles. It is easy for the man to expect many things from the wife and the wife in turn can feel overwhelmed and get defensive on the matter. This my friends, if you stay at home and even if you don't, is our jobs! It should also be our joy! It is not my job to tell my husband who he should be and what he should do. That is God's place. It is my job to provide a home for him and a place for him to   relax when he comes home from work. Is it his role to help raise the children... OF COURSE! That is a partnership and really he should be in charge of it even! Anyways... It has just been a powerful resource for me as I transition from being a working wife to a stay at home mom & wife! It's not as easy as it appears. I get asked often if I am bored yet... Not if I am doing what I should in making sure my husband comes home to a house of order and a child well taken care of! It is truly a beautiful thing and I pray that the Lord would continue to transform me a s a wife and mother! Evelyn is little now but soon she will be watching me very closely... what kind of impression will I leave. What kind of daughter, friend, future wife will I be influencing in her... It is an overwhelming responsibility!


I am being hit more and more with what kind of world she is going to grow up in! All of a sudden it is a world of woman empowerment, homosexuality being viewed as a civil rights issue instead of what it is... sin, view of family being altered. You see so much of how woman are becoming more independent of men! I heard an interesting view on this. They were saying why woman are having more children outside of marriage (carriage before marriage instead of  "then comes marriage then comes the baby in the baby carriage") because of not only the divorce rates in their parents but also because they are becoming the head & providers of the home as they are becoming the more influencing gender and they get paid more than men because of their value! There is something far wrong with that! Our men NEED that! They NEED to feel NEEDED! They need to feel like Prince Charming and Super Man! There is nothing wrong with feeding that into our men! I am just seeing the need at hand to instill things in my sweet little girl that are becoming far from the norm and I am beginning to ask myself... HOW!? I am feeling the desperation of the pressures around as we are beginning to feel the tide of the world become stronger and stronger. I am just praying for so much grace and wisdom in this! I praise God that he has set examples in my life to follow and people to go to for wisdom but most importantly His Word! I need his word! I am failing at feeding off of it and seeking him out! Please pray for me in this area! I need this for my daughter! For my husband as well!